Artist in Residence Quarantine Diaries Episode 14: No Rest for the Busy… and Reflections on Legacy

So I used the time I am spending inside my house – covid, and toxic air, and all like that – in order to try and earn some money. I am doing critique reports for manuscripts through an agency that provides this service.

Editing work, even if it is “just” a critique and not a full edit, is a study in the good, the bad, and the ugly. The manuscripts that get chanelled to me run the gamut. What they have in common is that they are usually by writers starting out, writers who are new or at least newISH to their craft, and who need the feedback of a professional crit. But that’s where all similarity ends and the manuscripts can be anything from “back to the drawingboard please” to “ohmigod where has this writer been all my life”. I’ve had to wrestle with basic writing – with literal sentences – which kept making me skid to a halt and re-read the thing four times and still remain unsure of what exactly the writer was trying to say there. I got the second book of a planned trilogy, one time, without ANY attempt at a synopsis of what went on before to help situate me, which predictably made me drown in the thing because there was literally no way to make sense of it without being very familiar with Book 1. I got a MS which clearly springs from utter love of the material but which has been through the editorial mill before and the writer dutifully rewrote the entire thing to someone’s fiat, but it is clearly not the story that he wanted to tell in the first place and thus the poor tale was left a little ill served by this (I had a lot to say on that one – which means two things – one, there was a lot there that I thought was problematic in some way and two, he made me CARE, hard enough to write a critique report that ran to over 10,000 words…) And then I got this gift, this gem, from a guy whose first fricking novel this is, and I hate him, because it is perfect. In fact, I have girded my loins and am prepared to use any personal connections I can muster to get this book seen by editors who need to see it because I honestly believe I am holding a future award-winner in my hands.

And today I got another MS in the mail, from somebody who *asked for me by name* as their editor which means that he read at least SOMETHING I’ve written and liked it well enough to trust my hand on his own story. That’s both humbling and exciting at once.

These things make me think.

I was a rank newbie, once, and I had writers I adored whose opinions on my work meant the world – some of you guys already know my Roger Zelazny story, the one where I got to meet him literally months before he was gone, and where he left me with words tnat are engraved in gold in the back of my mind and to which I return every time I falter in my own career arc or in self belief. And here I am now, somehow, sitting in a similar chair for somebody else, someone who read something that came from my mind and my heart, loved it, and now values my thoughts on their own words.

I feel the responsibility. I do. When I say that I plan on putting that one novel before an editor in a position to make it published… it occurs to me that it is almost fantastic, something out of pure fiction, that I am in a position to do this for somebody. I am on a rung on this ladder where I am suddenly able to reach down and help someone else take a step or two upwards, or at least give it a good try.

When I was growing up, I knew I was going to be a writer. Getting to this point – being a semi- SENIOR writer, someone with a foothold (however tenuous) in the industry and more than three million published words – that wasn’t even in the picture. That was ahead in the mists of time. It was a dream beyond the dream. It was, to borrow a precious word from a precious movie, inconceivable to that child that I once was (and yes I DO know what that word means…).

It both exhilarates and scares me, to find myself standing here.

There are people out there now, trudging up those same thorny roads that I trod, who think that someone like me is at a destination. The truth of it is I see as much road ahead of me as behind and sometimes it’s frankly scary to have this kind of trust reposed in me, in my opinions, in my critiques, in what I think and what I say. I mentored a young writer from a tender age of 13 when I saw him shine like a tiny little rough diamond from within the pile of pretty pebbles who were his peers – and he flew with the wings that I helped give him, he won school awards for his writing, beating out seniors when he was barely a sophomore in high school, and I couldn’t be more proud of him than if he’d been my own. I think he grew up into a fine young man, and we’re still in touch. I am not sure if he writes any more – or at least not in the way that he did when I met him – but when he did, I was there, and it mattered to both of us. Whatever else he decides to do with his life, that happened, him and me, and the thing that we shared, and I treasure that. Whether or not he becomes a writer – or at least a published author – that doesn’t even matter any more. I taught him things, he learned them. That goes into the future with him now. It’s part of him. He’s part of the legacy I leave behind.

Writers leave behind different legacies, in the end. For some, it’s one perfect book and an enduring adoration of generations of readers. For others it’s hundreds of books, and a reflection of complete glory. For some, and apparently I am in this group, the legacy also involves taking a writer who is on their way, following behind me, and giving them a hand up over a rough spot, or pointing out a signpost they might have missed. And you know, I am almost as proud of THAT as anything I have ever written.

I am not saying I am the great writer guru, that everything I say is true – or even that my opinion is always completely helpful – but that’s the nature of an editorial hand. You work with the stuff that you are handed, by the writer, and you hope that your input makes it into something… better. And with luck the writer spreads those wings and flies, and you watch them soar, and know that you had a hand in releasing that great bird so that others can see and admire it up there in the sky which it (for a brief moment – ah, we all have a brief moment) might own.

I’ve got a MS to read and edit. I don’t know yet what kind of a bird it is going to turn out to be. If you’ll excuse me, I have work to do.


About Alma Alexander

Alma Alexander's life so far has prepared her very well for her chosen career. She was born in a country which no longer exists on the maps, has lived and worked in seven countries on four continents (and in cyberspace!), has climbed mountains, dived in coral reefs, flown small planes, swum with dolphins, touched two-thousand-year-old tiles in a gate out of Babylon. She is a novelist, anthologist and short story writer who currently shares her life between the Pacific Northwest of the USA (where she lives with her husband and two cats) and the wonderful fantasy worlds of her own imagination. You can find out more about Alma on her website (, her Facebook page (, on Twitter ( or at her Patreon page (

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