These days, I’ve been feeling like I’m juggling lots of balls and I feel like I’m dropping just about everything. I’m not, but I am. I can look at the last two months (from the beginning of the year), and I’ve completed two books. That’s big. I’ve been being a mom. I’ve been having dental work and helping my husband through a miserable wisdom teeth extraction complete with dry sockets.
All the same, I’ve let a lot of balls drop. I’m not sure why. Am I disorganized? Taking too much on? Not using my time wisely? Probably all of the above. I know that things crop up and the next thing I know, I’m dropping a ball.
Why am I talking about this? I find it’s one of those things that’s hideously embarrassing to me and also makes me feel incredibly stressed. Like constant balled up painful stomach and a headache. Plus like most everybody else, I worry about money and paying bills. And then there’s the political stuff going on. A lot of that eats me up, but it’s not going away soon.
A lot of people have this sort of stress. I know exercise can help. Meditation. Yoga. I’ve not learned the latter two. I get in some of the first, but ironically, that’s the thing that goes first because it’s not got a deadline of any kind. It’s the least insistent of things. I know I should put it first, but a lot of times I just don’t.
I don’t know a lot about what I’m going to do about it. I used to keep lists of things to-do. That helped me feel less stressed because at least I wouldn’t forget stuff I needed to do. So I need to do that again. Why did I stop? Things got away from me.
I keep telling myself that I just need to get myself caught up and then I can organize. Reading that, it’s kind of nuts, isn’t it? I should probably organize in order to catch up. So I make this post and promise myself that I will make an effort to start getting organized and chip away at the things I need to do and start planning a schedule in order to do that.